Some of the most compelling novels and films ever made are about characters who live double lives. A high school chemistry teacher who is actually a drug kingpin or a sweet suburban couple who are actually spies for the KGB.  The reason these stories are so compelling is because, though less dramatic, we all tend to live double lives-presenting ourselves ideally on the outside, but hiding some darker things on the inside.  I know I do, and I suspect maybe you do too. No I am not a drug dealer or Russian spy. But there is a difference between my outward self, how I want to be seen, and the inward part that you can’t see.  For example, I come before you as Der Hayr, the man of God, under control with all the answers. But I tend to hide my doubt and anxiety when everything feels out of control. I come before you ready and willing to serve, but tend to hide the feelings of overwhelm and resentment when I can’t live up to my ideals. So you see what I want you to see, and I hide a lot of the rest. How about you?